For some reason I can't think if the music I'm listening to is louder than the voice in my head. It doesn't make any sense because it is not as though the voice in my head has any actual volume. It's not like the two voices are having a fierce battle with sound waves. The sound going into my head through my pinna, through the eardrum, through the cochlea, is surely linked to a different pathway than the one where thought is produced. Nevermind, they're probably linked somewhere. I've probably even learned about this more than once. It would make sense why most hallucinations found in clinical psychology are auditory rather than visual. It follows the one theory that states hallucinations are due to a disconnect somewhere along the pathway that tells the person the thought that is occuring is yours and not someone else's. It's like making yourself a cup of tea but somewhere along the line forgetting that you made the cup of tea so now you have this tea that just came out of fuck knows where. I have so much disconnect I could have one giant fucking tea party.

I am a dork. One of the sweetest things I always thought (well, after taking CS from Nelie) a guy could do for me would be to make a c++ program that allowed me to play a sort of makeshift piano with the keyboard keys since I don't have a piano here at school and I miss playing one. Fuck that, I'll do it myself one day before I die. Sound was easy. Graphics were easy. The actual useful stuff, not so easy.